(Almost) mid-year update

Hard to believe it is already mid May of the year that is 2012 (cue the obligatory "where did all the time go?" spiel). I think it is the proper time to give an update on this very blog of mine just what the heck have I been doing so far this year. Since this is the first paragraph of this blog post, I am suppose to give you a preview of what is to come right? Well, I have only one word for you: busy.

BLOG? WHAT BLOG?  

So busy in fact that the amount of blog post of far this year on this very blog has diminished to an alarmingly low rate (according to my own personal standards) compared to previous years. However free flowing are lack of grammatical correction my blog posts are, they usually take quite a decent amount fo time to write. 2,000 words (about the average amount of words I write each time I blog) of anything just does not write itself within the hour, no matter what the procrastinating college student tells you otherwise (been there, done that). So apologies to myself (new years resolution was to write plenty) and the readers of this blog (count of which can probably be done with the digits on my limbs) for the lack of content these past months. 

Sidebar: I have to say though, that piece about my experience with jury duty was probably the longest blog post I have ever wrote. Took me three days to completely flush it out and begrudgingly edit it.

HARDLY WORKING

What was I so busy with? Mainly work. I of course still work for O'BON; pandering our Eco-friendly school and office supplies to the United States consumer market. My role with the company has shifted and expanded a lot from the guy with the still camera that I was originally hired for (and would not have otherwise graduated undergrad if not for that). That tend to happen often in these small startup companies, where in order to save on labor cost, employees are forced to wear many hats (and not paid nearly as much as they should - America's false sense of high productivity). So yes, I took on many more hats on top of the photographer's hat I was already wearing: social media, marketing, design, email sales, shipping, and office admin.

It has been great to be present for so many facets O'BON (not really all the hard when the company is three people small), and learning from it constantly. I very much enjoy looking at the macro level of things - seeing how all the different compartment fits into the whole picture. Perhaps that is just the "control freak" personality trait that is innate within me (played too much of Sim City during my childhood). Granted, I think few that aspire to start their own company haven't got that obsessive compulsive nature of wanting to control everything, right down the most minute detail.

So that is my day job, if you want to call it that. I only get a little more than half time kind of work hours at O'BON (26.5 hours) so it is not exactly what you would like to refer as satisfactory - especially since I am not longer in school. I was okay with this situation for a bit though (extremely proud to contribute to the under employed statistic), because like many of my recently graduated peers, the job market is just not all that vibrant for us (go to college they said, you'll get a job they said.) Honestly though the pay is absolutely at the bottom of what can be considered as "entry level", and while I am frugal as frugal gets (excluding consumer electronics), I share my mother's worries about not earning enough to befit my college level education (hello there, sense of entitlement). 

WORKING HARD

As luck would have it, early February I found another part time job to supplement my paltry income. Thanks to my hard work and dedication during my four year tenure as a student assistant at the Academic Technology department of San Francisco State University (ha!), I was lucky enough to get brought back into the fold as the night staff for AT distribution. It was familiar and surreal at the same time to be back at the place of employment during my college years. Thank heavens all the knowledge I have ascertained did not escape me even though I was more than nine months removed from having last worked there. 

It was one of the best things to happen to me so far this year. 

There was a running joke at the time back in my college years that if I was there to see SFSU's new library finish and use it, then something is wrong (ie. still haven't graduated undergrad after five years - my apologies to those in majoring in bio or chemistry as the standard operating procedure for you guys is like six years plus). Well, these kind of things have a funny way of unravelling themselves because due to me being hired as the night staff for AT, it meant that I will be working at, that's right, the new library. In fact a week after I was hired, the whole department moved into the new digs. Who would have thought.

Cumulatively then, I went from working 26 hours a week to now a bit over 50. While it was financially awesome, it was definitely not physically or mentally awesome (commuting sucks no matter how you slice it). 12 hour work days takes a toll on you as I have already been sick three times so far this year. My usually exercise schedule is all out of kilter, as nowadays I have to force myself to wake up at 7am to get the workout in. Weekdays I don't get home until 11pm, and then I immediately get ready for bed because I value sleep so damn much (muscles don't repair themselves, you know). At this point I would like to give a shout out to caffeine, because without it, none of this would have been possible.

As you can see, I really haven't got much time these past months for anything else. In fact I have only gone out shooting (photography, not guns) once, which is a great shame. Weekends are definitely for recharging, with the Saturday night to Sunday morning 10 hours of slumber being especially awesome. With the summer months coming up and me ceasing to work night hours due to regular university semester being over, I hope to use the extra time to devote back to my hobbies and other activities. 

ONE DISTRACTION

Of course, that means plenty of baseball. 

As previously blogged, nothing quite compared the joys the Giants baseball season provides. While I won't rehash what I said here, let's just say it is a wonderful outlet and distraction from the all the "normal" stuff. It has been a great shame that due to my work hours, I have not been able to go to games during the weekdays (I am still peeved I missed the Phillies series). Not only did I missed a few key match ups, most important of all weekday games are MUCH cheaper than weekend games and I could have gone to multiple of them for the cost of one. Cannot wait for the summer time (one week away!) when I no longer work night time hours and I can finally go to weekday games again - because living in San Francisco is awesome for this: eat dinner, drive to park, park bit a way for free, and walk to the park just in time for a 7:15pm start time. Yeah, summer nights are awesome like that.

Remember one of my new years resolution for 2012 is to go to more baseball games than the previous year (20+). While I am off to a slow start due to my work schedule, having only gone to a grand total of four games, at least the team's winning percentage while I am at those games is already tremendously better than last years abysmal record. Yes, going to the ballpark, no matter win or lose, is an infinitely better experience than watching it on the tube, but honestly seeing a Giants win live at the ballpark and hearing the sweet sounds of Tony Bennet singing "I Left My Heart in San Francisco" as you exit is like nothing else. 

PHOTOGRAPHY IS PROHIBITED

Sad to say with all the business going on, my main hobby of photography was horribly neglected to far this year (not as severe as my gaming hobby though - I don't think my PS3 has been turned on at all this year). One bit of good news (for me) is that I finally ditched my entry level Canon Rebel XSi camera and stepped up to the big leagues with a professional grade Canon 7D (yes, it's a crop sensor. I haven't got the cash at the time for a full frame 5D Mark III). The difference in just handling and build quality of the two camera is absolutely night and day, not to mention the functionality and higher quality components. The limited shooting I have done with the 7D have been a joy (of course I am saying this partly because I spent a relative fortune on it), and the only negative thing is that it makes me want to reshoot everything that I have already shot with the XSi (not going to happen). 

Happy to report that my photo a day 366 project (due to this year being a leap year, it's a 366 project, not 365) is still going extremely well. But it goes without saying that for the rest of this year I need get back into the swing of things and go out and shoot much more often than I have (lest I risk blowing another of my new years resolutions). I am also looking forward to actually making some prints of the stuff I have done, either through a commercial entity or buying a photo printer for myself (oh, be still my wallet). 

(HALF) MID-LIFE

So what are the plans for the rest of this year? Definitely more of the same with regards to work (and baseball!). You can say I am basically in work and save money kind of mode right now. I am still contemplating the merits of a MBA graduate degree (outside of appeasing the hopes and dreams of my parents - how filial of me) so I think I will put that off another year just to be sure I am not dumping a few tens of thousands into tuition just for the sake of it. 

I turn 25 at the end of the year, and I guess that is a symbolic number as it signals the quarter of one's life (even though it does not make mathematical sense since the average life expectancy in the United States is still somewhere in the mid 80s). I have ask around and it seems like having a quarter life crisis is not all that uncommon these days (granted, not exactly a statistical sound kind of polling i did). I guess age 25 coincides quite coincidentally with most people's end of higher education (or imminent end) and thus they are stuck in the chasm between all they have ever known (education!) and full on adulthood (work for the rest of your life!). Age 25 is the "ho lee shit" moment.  

Well, in Stephen Colbert fashion, I am determined to have my OWN quarter life crisis, but not in a negative kind of way. I am going to embrace the ambiguity that exist between now and the future, and just take things as they come. Like the midlife crisis, I am going to buy a sports car. All in all, there is only one way I am determined to go:

Onwards and upwards.  

And all that good stuff - 2011 reflections

As another wondrous year winds down to an end, it is time once again for me to write my insanely long year end reflection blog post to commemorate the glorious year that is about to end in less than eight hours as of this writing (hello run on sentence!) 

First things first, this time of the year is all about people planning their New Year’s resolution to better themselves as a person for the year ahead. Now, I can easily beat the dead horse in rambling about how most resolutions go to die when the second week of January rolls around, but that defeatist attitude is apparently not welcome at a time like this, so I shall not. 

2011 RESOLUTIONS

Instead, I will brag about the enormous success that was my own New Year’s resolutions for 2011. Granted some may call it cheating to only have THREE resolutions to keep, but whatever, do not lay the blame on me for being actually responsible enough to set goals that is somewhat achievable. My advice is instead of having a list of resolutions a mile long (think I saw on the social networks someone working on a list of 50+ (!?)) and being satisfied you will only hit a few in the new year, have a few that you know the likelihood of achieving is great, so that when you do succeed in all of them, it is a much greater satisfaction.

Anyways, here are the thee New Year’s resolution for 2011 that I victoriously accomplished: 

• 1. Blog consistently
• 2. Be able to read Korean script (한굴 hangul) at normal speed
• 3. Stop being lazy - most of the time

sidebar: if you think I am just pulling these out of my ass, I kindly refer you to my  blog post, in which all of the above was proclaimed.

Allow me to elaborate further. If you are reading this right now, you would undoubtedly know that this is a my personal blog. For the year 2011, I wrote a grand total of 42 blog posts (and my posts are not short by any stretch of the imagination). While this may not challenge the output of blog articles of my previous years (a post a day was pretty common back in my Facebook notes days), when accounting for the amount of work and other stuff I had to do, overall I am pretty satisfied with 42 blog posts for the year. Of course I aim to break that record next year (2012 New Year’s resolution #1!)

I happen to have another blog - my photography blog, and that also got updated frequently in 2011 with pictures and articles related to my photographic endeavors. So it is indeed fair to say the 2011 New Year’s resolution of blogging consistently have been quite successful.

As for reading Korean script at a normal pace (I feel like I must reiterate, this is read and read ONLY, does not mean I understand it completely), well it was a just a natural growth process as I continued to watch Korean tv shows. The more I watched, the better I got at it. For sure I could have just completely ignore the Korean and instead read the Chinese subtitles that accompany the videos (Chinese subtitles because my brothers and sisters over in the great nation of China sub the shows usually by the day after it broadcasts in Korea), but why rob myself of the educational opportunity if I don’t at least attempted to learn the orignal language of shows that I watch every week all though the year?

Sidebar: the best thing about Asian television programming as compared to American is that there are no such thing as reruns. There is fresh material and new episodes week after week. Makes you think what kind of bull shit it is that you need to wait months between seasons of shows (or even when they take their usual holiday breaks throughout a season’s run). 

The caveat of “most of the time” that was stipulated in the stop being lazy resolution was that old habits are indeed really hard to die. My entrepreneurship teacher always say that entrepreneurs by nature are lazy, so with that obvious flawed logic I take with me the entitlement that I can be lazy once in a while and everything will still be completely alright. Of course the resolution was to stop being so lazy that it will be impede me in whatever I was trying to accomplish, and on that front I think I did pretty okay. Though It is incredibly hard to quantify and show just how not lazy I was in the year 2011, merely spewing off a list of accomplishments would seem highly narcissistic. But alas resolutions are ultimately for the person himself, so my own satisfaction in a non-lazy 2011 shall suffice.

My emotions in regards to my 2011 New Year’s resolutions can be best summed up by this well known internet meme: 

MUSICALLY SPEAKING

Like most people of my generation (the most awesome generation for sure), I am a big part of the whole music fanaticism and how music is my life kind of thing. 2011 saw my iTunes library swell past the 12,000 mark. While that pales in comparison to the true music packrats of the world, I am still young so eventually I will be in the league of those people because as each year roll past the collection will only swell further.

Having 12,000 plus songs at my finger tip (not in my pocket, because my old 5th generation iPod can’t possibly hold that much songs, even if I compress them to hell) makes for a great personal juke box for the man cave, but that’s about it. I honestly would be lying if I told you I actually listened to each and every song (some haven’t even got one play!). Out of the 12,000 plus songs, only about 1,400 of it gets into the regular rotation. 

Since this blog post is about reflecting on 2011, how to do it for music? Well this year I discovered the wonderful app that is Last.fm. It allowed me to keep track of all the songs I have played for the the entire year, no matter on my Mac, iPod, or iPhone. This newfound convenience and power allowed me to discover just which songs throughout the year have been most played. If music connects with the feelings of a person like we all think it does, then the most played songs of 2011 ought to reflect pretty darn well the overall vibe of my 2011. So here is my top 10 most played song of 2011:

• 1. Owl City - The Saltwater Room
• 2. SHINee - 누난 너무 예뻐 (Replay)
• 3. Girls’ Generation - Echo
• 4. 4minute - Bababa
• 5. SHINee - Hello
• 6. 周杰倫 (Jay Chou) - 她的睫毛 (Her Eyelashes)
• 7. 4minute - Huh
• 8. f(x) - 피노키오 (Danger)
• 9. f(x) - Hot Summer
• 10. 鄧紫棋 (G.E.M.) - All About U 

Just a whole mess of K-pop, two Chinese songs, and surprisingly an American song made it to the top spot.

PHOTOGRAPHY

2011 was a big year for my photography “hobby”, as I easily doubled the amount of the photography I have done in all the past years combined. One big factor was that I finally finished all forms of schooling (for now) back in May so half the year I was much more freed up to pursue photographic endeavors (I mainly do landscapes so having time to travel to different locales was a must). The other big factor was my work. Since March I have been doing marketing stuff for this eco-friendly stationery company called O'BON. There were numerous opportunities at work to utilize my photography skills such as product and model shoots.  

Unfortunately, for much of this year I had to use the same amount of kit I started the year with. I was so hoping I would have a new camera body and few more lenses to mess around with by now. But the whole can’t find a job in this economy for recent college graduates really screwed up the financial situation. But a photographer must soldier on, and by no means was what i already have crappy equipment (I do own the best lens money can by for my particular kind of Canon DSRL). But next year I do hope to save enough money to get at the very least a new (and better) camera body (New Year’s resolution #2!). 

I did get a new lens this year - finally getting a prime lens to go along with my walk around zoom (if you don’t get it by now, a prime lens is one that does not zoom). A new Sigma 50mm prime lens will do wonders for me in low light conditions and most importantly, portraiture! Sadly I did not get this lens until December, and have only gotten the opportunity to use it on one assignment. But I am very excited for the things I will do with it next year. Most of the stuff I have been shooting so far have been landscapes and objects, and I really hope to branch out to shooting people (the only time where it is absolutely okay to shoot people is with a camera. Oh right, New Year’s resolution #3!).

For 2011 I also did the most popular project amongst photographic hobbyist - the 365 challenge. As the name suggest, I must take a photo a day, every day for one whole calendar year. On paper it sounded like a piece of cake, but the discipline required to actually remember and continue take a picture a day was way more than I have ever imagined. Many a days I was dangerously close to forget taking a picture (a few 11.59pm shots was shamelessly accomplished). Hard to imagine that today will be the last day and the end to the project.

I am incredibly happy that I did the 365 challenge, because now I have a set of 365 photographs to look back on and reminisce about the song and dance of 2011. Those set of photographs really becomes sort of like a year book compilation. That is exactly what I plan to do with the photographs - make a book out of them. As I continue to do the project year after year (yes, the project will continue on indefinitely until I physically cannot shoot photos anymore), I will have a bookshelf full of year books, chronicling my life. 

GRADUATION

This year I finally completed my undergraduate education from San Francisco State with a degree in business entrepreneurship. It was perhaps one of the proudest moments of my life (yet) standing up there on stage during the entrepreneurship commencement celebration, giving my thank-you speech. A culmination of two years of the hardest schooling I have ever gone through absolutely paid off in the finest of ways. Most important of which I have a circle of great entrepreneurship friends that I know will keep in touch and hang out with for the longest of time, sharing battle (and success!) stories.

The goal of the entrepreneurship program at SFSU is for everybody that is tough enough to graduate from the program to start their own business. While I still have aspirations of attending MBA graduate school (partly to appease my ultra orthodox Asian parents), I have decided in 2011 to start my business anyways. Because there will most likely be a two year gap between undergrad and grad school, it seemed prudent to start the business now, at an extremely small level, and grow it up slowly but surely. And since my business is mainly photography, I have the ability to keep it on the side and not cost me an exorbitant amount of money. Thus, junction industries was born in 2011.

The ultimate vision of junction industries is to be a digital media company, spanning photography, videography, digital design, and music. But of course that is many years ahead in the future. For now the main focus is photography, as that is that one thing I am most brilliant at (not to mention it is still a one man show at the moment). Like I said, the company will grow very slow and steady from small to hopefully someday enough of a size to fit in a warehouse loft. For now, it is just a photography blog, and a registered .com domain name. At least no one can possibly steal the name from me (knock on wood). 

As previously mentioned, 2011 was a big year for my photography in terms of volume and skill advancement. I also happened to monetize a few projects, and sold a few prints as well. Overall it was pretty satisfactory, because the goal since graduation in May was not to start making money with my photography, but rather doing as much of it as a I can and improve, without the barrier of school to take precious time away from me to do so. But I do want to start monetizing more and more projects and sell quite a few prints next year (New Year’s Resolution #4!). 

SPORTING INTENTIONS

Can’t reflect on the year without my favorite past time (of all time) - sports. I am an avid fan of my local sport teams, especially the San Francisco Giants. 2010 saw them winning it all by taking the World Series Championship, thus for 2011 there was a large amount of expectations for the team to do well and challenge for the title once again.

I have never gone to as many baseball game as I did during the 2011 season of San Francisco Giants baseball. I am too lazy to count right now, but the number of games went to is easily above 20. Anytime the tickets was reasonably cheap, it was to the ballpark I went. For baseball there is nothing quite like being at the park and watching it live (gives some modicum of truth to the traditional 7th inning stretch jingle), and now that I have gone to so many games in a season, I will never go to any less per season for the rest of my life (when possible.)  A very special shout out to the small group of friends that joined me in the fabulous entertainment that is Giants baseball. Let’s do it again in 2012 (New Year’s resolution #5!)

Unfortunately the Giants did not fare so well in 2011. The pitching was still absolutely fantastic, but the offense was just too anemic to give them enough support to win games. The lost of Buster Posey and Freddy Sanchez turned out to be unrecoverable, and towards the end of the year half the team was on the disabled list one way or another (What will forever be known as Black Tuesday). The Giants scored the least amount of runs in the National League, and missed the playoffs after winning the whole thing year before. As a fan it was a really sour note for me because the potential of the team was so great (and tangible, not just some made up hope of a fandom). 2011 season was a spectacular failure, and the great pitching was wasted. 

Still, going to so many games at the ball park was just awesome. Even when the team loses, the margin was so close that the games were for the most part always exciting. 

On the other hand, 2011 was a great season for the San Francisco 49ers, carrying with them a 12-3 record (and NFC West Division title) to the new year as one of the top Super Bowl contenders. It was a complete turn around from the previous decade of losing. New coach Jim Harbaugh was the final piece to the puzzle of a team filled with so many talented players that just needed proper guidance. I was never one of those people that railed on quarterback Alex Smith, and am happy to see him doing so well this season. NFL football Sundays have not been this exciting as they were in 2011 for the longest time.

Nothing like 49ers football in glorious high definition to highlight the weekend. Because unlike last year, I did not go to a live game this year. Hate to say it, but the 49ers’ stadium at Candlestick Park is an absolutely dump (it is the oldest football stadium in the league) and not a pleasant experience (world famous Candlestick weather patterns). No need to pay expensive tickets to see a football game when I get a better view from my couch at home.

AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF

If there is one thing I take away from 2011, is that the the four pillars of family, friends, person, and work must all be in balance with each other. Meaning you can’t afford to neglect any one of them for the sake of another. I don’t think one can be happy that way, at least not at the stage of life where I am at. Sure you can solely concentrate on one aspect for a significant amount of time, and in some ways you should (some of my pals trying to start a business haven’t got the choice but to invest all their time into it), but please make sure you make it up to the other areas in due time. Especially your family. 

Anyways, 2011 was the best year of my life. That is how it is suppose to be right? I am at the point of my life where every new year should be the better than all the previous. The Chinese have saying during new years - 新年進步 which loosely translates to how you should improve with a new year. That is what I strive to do in 2012 and all the other years beyond it (insert joke about end of the world). 

01/01/2011 - 2010 reflections

Perhaps January 11th and November 1st and the 11th will be more special in terms of the numbers games, but I digress, for this will be long and rambling-like, for clearly at this point I have no idea where I am going with this.

Another year has slip on by into the memories and subsequently another decade. And while people are either still hung over from their new years eve escapades or on their first 5 days of going to the gym (because face it, that new years resolution will only last a week), it is time for me to jot down some thoughts. Not because I was impelled to, but it just so happens that one of my new years resolution is to start blogging consistently again. The past two years of school absolutely consumed my life and I barely had time to do my hobbies, must less blog about what is on my mind. It is time to start it up again since I only have one semester of torture I mean school left so (super) senioritis will provide me all the time I need to blog.

As the decade has gone, so has the medium of blogging in which I am using. Who can forget the Xanga platform that I used up until the invention of Facebook, also known as procrastination destination number one. I still find myself revisiting the old Xanga from time to time, because indeed it was a time capsule of high school life for me. Back in those days I did not blog about topics, but instead I just wrote what the heck happened during my enlightening day of high school level K-12 education. What is more surprising is that Xanga has deemed it necessary to preserve all it’s users written data even if that user has cease to access it consistently for the past 5 years. And for that I tip my cap to them.

The transition to Facebook was natural as I completely embraced the way of consistency: no longer do I need to do some special coding to make my blog or page unique. Everybody’s page looking the same was in my opinion one of the biggest strengths of Facebook and what ultimately doomed the MySpace platform (glad to see the founders received their payday and got the fuck out). Some of you might remember even Facebook went through a phrase of inconsistency, will all the applications that can fill up someone’s wall. Thankfully the company came to their senses. I have amassed one hundred and one notes on Facebook until I stopped due to schoolwork and other shenanigans that got in the way.

And here I am on a new platform that is tumblr. Do not ask me why I switched, because I cannot give you the reason. For sure I can continue on writing notes in Facebook, and probably reach a wider audience in terms of my friends, but nonetheless I blog mainly to have a time capsule so I can later on in life read what the current me is thinking about. And on we go.

2010 was the year of getting things done. I may gripe about the enormous work load my entrepreneurship major entails, but every bit of it was worth it as the major drops real world knowledge on the students and I feel like the class will be the most prepared out of all the business majors in terms of readiness in the work field (an opus on how fail the college education system is for preparing kids for the real world can be left for another day). Think about this: for two years, it is the same students, same class, and same teacher. The workload is no joke: in one and half years time, the class would have done the rough equivalent of two graduate theses amount of work. The amount of research and revisions is ridiculous. The class certainly did not score points with any of the environmental advocate groups, I personally ran through 6 cartridges of black ink and the paper that comes with it. Nonetheless, work was done (it is weird how more than five spelling mistakes = F will impel you to do well) as I now possess the skills to research an industry to the point of becoming an expert, and write a well thought out business plan. I thank the California government for paying for my education. 

Apart from the grind of academia, I was also lucky enough to retain a job on campus amidst the still slow to recover economy and double-digit unemployment numbers. Nothing like having a steady income to pursue your very expensive hobbies (someone please recommend one that will not hurt my wallet as much, please). So basically for nine months of out the whole of 2010 I went to school and work and that was it. The three months of summer was quite depressing as it hurt to see everyone graduating on time and on to bigger and better things while here I am still having another year of undergrad to look forward to (knowing full well the inhuman amount of workload). I was so drained from the first part of the year that during the summer I basically just recharged my batteries. As I am reflecting right now I cannot even think of anything significant enough (other than going to San Diego for a couple of days for what I can only imagine) that happened over the summer. But to be honest that is quite alright, as the realization has hit me just now that could be my last summer break EVER. So what can I say, I slept and chilled, was not so bad.

Asian parents would say, work and school is all you need and all that you should focus on. Somehow they just expect you to find a significant other at the appropriate time (or back in the olden days they would just hook you up with someone). And to be honest you should not ONLY focus on those two things, but for sure they are very important. But aside from those two things, 2010 I picked up learning the language of Korean. Well, not exactly, as I had yet to open any learning textbooks (or that copy of Rosetta stone). As watching television has taught me the twisted language of English, watching Korean television is how I am picking things up (special shout out to Comcast cable for carrying KBSworld). It is slow and definitely not the most efficient way to go, but remember how strapped for time I was for nine months out of 2010? Anyways, it also helps tremendously when one of your best friend’s girlfriend is Korean and is nice enough to have some attempts at broken conversation (who needs grammar!). Another of my 2011 resolution is to get to a point where I can read Korean script at a fluent pace/speed (note I am not saying I will understand it as well haha).

2010 also saw me continuing the trend I started four years ago back in sophomore year of undergrad: exercising and eating healthy on a consistent basis. While due to school work often times I did not stick to a six times a week schedule, I schedule it in every chance I can. But what is the end game with my exercise regiment? Definitely not to get swollen and huge, as appearance wise I am still pretty skinny (“you weight 160?”). For me it is not vanity reasons (though it does not hurt), as I just want to be healthy with bodily functions at optimal levels (I am still in my twenties for Pete’s sake). More importantly, you just feel good when you are fit and in shape.  

And eating healthy has already become a habit, so on that front it is not really much of a effort. Though I guess other people gets fed up with my “I can’t eat that” line. Do I want to eat what every the heck I want? Sure, I mean, who would not? Eating has turned from a survival requirement to entertainment, and it is not all that wrong. I mean anything social these days with friends and family revolves around food. However what is more important than enjoying food is that I do not want to be in my mid life and have chronic illnesses. America needs to turn from a nation of “after the fact” to a nation of active prevention. Besides, just because food is healthy does not mean it taste bad. And yes, some days you just want a good ole American cheeseburger. Someday I will turn bitter that my tax money is going to treating old people with illnesses/disabilities that are entirely preventable.

That pretty much sums up 2010 (personally speaking). Nothing too exciting, as it is all about getting work done and getting things headed into the right direction. Learning and gaining useful knowledge everyday (useful not as in winning a million dollars at Jeopardy, though that is cool too). As my professor would say, the business of the business, using resources to get the business ahead. So do excuse if my experience of 2010 is not as lively as others. Did I waste time? Sure, laziness never escapes me. Did I find time to entertain? For sure: I am at a point in my life where work cannot dominate the whole as social and entertainment does the mind good to better tackle the work. So easy it is to get drained from too much of anything. Focus on what important, get it done, but do not ever forget to stick in something to get your mind off the tangent.

Thoughts on the decade that just pass? Not much really. I mean, the decade happened at such chaotic times as I went though middle school, high school, and undergrad. In terms of transitions and change I wager it will probably be the biggest out of any part of the rest of my life (2012 draws closer). With all that chaos comes good memories, and some that I rather forget. No other decade will illicit more “what was I thinking” reactions in terms of my life. But that is natural I guess, as it is just a part of growing up. There are times I wonder what would happen if my 23 old mind is somehow transplanted back in time. But that is some Star Trek alternated reality shit that I think it would be better to not think about. At the end of the day (decade?) it is all for the best as I am still alive, healthy, and moving forward. That is all that you can ask for really. As my mother would say, the only thing she prays for in any occasion that calls for praying is good health. I take it to heart, as for sure you can have millions but if you are crippled with illness and disease it will do you no good.

Like I said, the past decade was a decade of transitions, on a personal level and world level (9/11, war, religion, economy, China, etc.). The next decade will be what I would like to call my prime decade (again, assuming we don’t all perish in 2012). It is time to finish college, and get a steady job in a field that I enjoy, and do all the things I want to do. You know, the time to just be spontaneous and just go with it (within means of course, you will never find me in debt and bankrupted). Other than sustaining my own life, there are close to zero extraneous responsibility to hold me back. For example, I really miss Asia, and I will make a point to go back often. It is time to see what the world have to offer, and what I have to offer it.  

Because at the end of that tunnel is the human responsibility of marriage and procreation (the ball, chain, and anchor). At that point, one’s life will be very structured, restricted, and patterned. One just need to get to a point when he or she feels is ready to embarked on that part of life, then naturally will no longer have adverse feelings towards it (you have to be happy with yourself first). Personally I feel like I need to do my own thing, achieve what I want for myself before I am willing to commit to that (going to need at least a decade for that haha). I have extreme reservations about people that gets married in their twenties as I seriously feel they are missing out on an experience for themselves. If patterns hold, our generation will live a very long time, hence there will be plenty of time later to get settled and do that whole domestic dance. New years resolution number three: stop being lazy… most of the time.

Marriage advice aside, I am very much looking forward to the new decade, as I foresee many exciting and interesting things. But to take the sports clichéd of taking it one game at a time, I shall take it one year at a time. 2011 will hopefully see me get done with undergrad, enter the workforce, while pursuing my hobbies and interest. Should be fun indeed. Say hello to goodbye.

It is now 01/02/2011, but I started writing this 01/01/2011. Still count (Akon: “I just had sex…”)